Well, here it is, the last day of one of the best years of my life.
December 31, 2006 found me in the bed crying my eyes out and feeling sorry for myself because my girlfriend and I weren’t speaking after I hit the roof over her smart ass comment about me taking a second trip to the buffet while in Las Vegas. That comment resulted in me being embarrassed and then hiding it by bitching about that and everything else under the sun the whole way back to Los Angeles.
I came into 2007 236 pounds, alone, depressed, and unsure of myself. The day of the Oscar’s I was officially dumped which sent me into an even deeper depression that magnified by love affair with food.
And despite all of that, I managed somehow to pull it together and to come out on top.
As the song goes, that don’t kill you only makes you stronger.
From losing 75 pounds this year to traveling to Sierra Leone with Isaiah Washington and then turning 30, 2007 for me, has been a milestone year.
And even though I am still hurt about the whole relationship thing, I will not take it with me into 2008. I don’t have room or the time for it.
Just like I am not taking with me anything or anyone that doesn’t fit into my master plan for how I choose to live my life today.
There are people that I had in my life coming into 2007 that won’t be coming with me on my journey in 2008 simply because I have made the conscientious choice to recognize that our time is done and their purpose has been served in my life and vice-versa.
And as I look towards 2008, I am thankful for my family and friends that helped me through 2007. While there are too many too name, they know who they are. And before I step into 2008, I'm taking the time to remember those who aren't here with me (MR, CB, JK R.I.P).
2008 is the year of accountability. Accountable to one’s self as well as to family, friends, and community.
I will be focused on being a better daughter, sister, aunt, granddaughter, niece, cousin, friend, co-worker, and eventually…lover.
2008 is also the year I quit smoking once and for all. It makes no sense to lose the weight only to die from cancer. Hello! It won’t be easy, but nothing ever is.
I will continue to live my with purpose and use the tools at my disposal to raise my voice on the issues and causes that are relevant to me as I encourage others to do the same.
2008 is the year that I do me.
Be safe, be well, and I’ll see you in 2008!